There are so many things I don't know about. It continues to amaze me how much other people go through. I complain so much, especially to myself, about how shitty I've got things. About how I'm such a bad person, about all the crap I do. I know it's all my fault. But really, everything I've ever dealt with is trivial compared to the crap that other people must go through, have been forced to go through. Maybe it's wrong to compare challenges between two different people, but I can't help but think I don't know anything when it comes to hardships. I create hardships in my life, instead of realizing that I've got such a wonderful life. But enough about that.

It is amazing how strong people are in this world. The strength I can see in a person is absolutely amazing. I'm moved when I look at people, when I hear their story, and see how they still live their life. There are so many strong people in the world, SO MANY. And they are SO strong. They continue to deal with hardship after hardship. Yet instead of getting the recognition they deserve because of all the good they've done in the world, they get jealousy. All the people in the world are jealous of all the GOOD people. Why can't someone be good any people just love them for that? Is it so hard to love someone that you think has done great things, without wishing you were them? Without being envious? Jealous? Is it so hard to just LOVE someone for who they are and what they have done? I'm so proud of all the people in my life. I'm so proud of the people who I've become close to this past year. I'm so proud of myself for recognizing the goodness in them. I'm proud of myself for realizing that keeping good people around me doesn't diminish me, rather it inspires me to become greater myself. To stop all the deceit in my life. To stop all the attention grabbing. I'm getting there. I'm not there yet. I've made some major slip ups. But I know what I've done wrong, and I'm getting better. You people, all of the people that I was talking about, the strong, the good, you've helped me become someone I can love. Become someone I'm not ashamed of. Thank you for that. Know that you kind acts, your strength, you caring, it is appreciated. Even if I usually fail in saying anything, or in saying anything that caries the weight I'm feeling right now. I'm never felt so lucky in my life, to be surrounded by so many amazing people.

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